We had a walloping snow storm yesterday after balmy temps just the day before. We received about a foot of snow. I was excited to see it. As much as I sort of enjoyed the warm weather it is not right. Bats were flying around, foxglove in the garden was still blooming and we even heard a spring peeper. Last night after the snow the temperatures plummeted to 15 degrees. The sounds outside sounded like winter. The cold snow muffling sound. No cars on the road nor planes in the sky. Nature told me to slow down and stop. I enjoyed a quiet day.
Life has been all jumbled up and confusing lately. I have started a journal and my prompt for January first was what was your best memory from last year and I could not come up with one. I am still trying to think about it. Last year was just one long continuous dark cloud for me. Getting my mom’s house ready to sell and selling it, trying desperately to hold my marriage together, getting a procedure for my heart. Then getting stuck on the merry go round of life- day in and day out. I reached a cross roads recently and hope I made the right decision. I keep going back and forth.
I have been reviewing my life and realizing I give up a lot to help others and it is taking its toll. I am working hard at the beginning of 2022 to make changes and find the peace that alluded me all last year.
Isn’t it funny how you think life will be one way and then three years later you realize it is something you could have never thought of. I had pictured things differently. I am adjusting to being mindful and present and to not have fixed outcomes on situations. I am trying to make small changes each day to help me be happy and healthy.
Happy New Year!! I hope it brings much joy and peace. Thanks for reading!