The road to hell is paved with good intentions-when I started back writing in the summer I had every intention to keep up with it even if it was only once a week. Well here we are three months later.

Life can be so peaceful sometimes and so chaotic at others and some at the same time. I have been struggling personally with depression, exhaustion and other messy emotions. Just when I think I have things all in order the apple cart gets upset.

I am moving forward and finding ways to maintain my equilibrium. I am starting a nature journal as well as reading more than I have been. Caregiving sometimes makes me forget what I like to do. I like to journal but honestly have not done so since my apartment burned down sixteen years ago. I journaled voraciously for years up to the fire. Once I lost all my journals I lost the desire to keep one. I am intrigued by nature journals and figured it would be good for me to start there.

I have been reconnecting with friends and family. As well as trying to schedule time for myself each day. Easier said than done. I have been cooking new recipes and have found that I like meals with spice and a kick to them whereas my husband prefers more bland meals. I finally have someone who will take and sell the last of my mom’s furniture for me. No one wants furniture anymore. At least used furniture.

Grief over my mom’s death still hits hard some days but for the most part I am doing alright. My dad died when I was 24 and I struggled for years to find my equilibrium again. He died suddenly and I was not ready for that. My life fell apart for two years after and then a friend put me in touch with UPS. My friends and family were there for me and never gave up on me. Much as they have not given up on me in my current situation. I am reevaluating a lot-myself, my beliefs and so much more. I am hoping to be a better person in the end.

I hope everyone has an amazing weekend.