Happy Thanksgiving 🍁🦃. It was a beautiful day here on the Delmarva Peninsula. Sunny, no wind and a bit warmer than the last few days. I have been pet sitting a dog and two cats for the past week. I have watched the dog for the past eight years. He is a cool lab. I enjoy his personality.
Today was rough for various reasons but I realize I have to be kind to myself and remember the societal pressures of Thanksgiving being a happy time. It is not and has not been for a number of years. I have been enjoying some quiet time tonight, reading, writing and listening to podcasts. I have found that I seem to go through major life upheavals about every ten years. Starting at 32, then 42 and now 52. Every time I think that the previous upheaval was the worst I realize that I was woefully wrong. I hate the cliches that tell you everything will be ok. I know everything will be ok but god what a slog to get through each day. I am practicing mindfulness, gratefulness and thankfulness which all keep me grounded. Some days I just want to sit and cry. I never thought life would be like this but I guess that is what makes life, well life. Change its all about change and how we adapt. I also have found if I let people be who they are then I would be a lot less frustrated on how I think they should be. Enough of my pity train.
I am trying to do small changes such as walking more and eating better as well as actually doing something that I enjoy each day. Over the past year between packing up and selling my mom’s home, visiting my mom and caregiving for my husband there has been little time for me. I have committed to writing more to help me figure things out. I find that best for me besides constantly thinking. I am relearning myself and what brings me joy and happiness. Books have always been a big part of my life ever since I was in elementary school. I loved the Scholastic Book Fairs! I still have some of the books I got from the fairs. I have thought about possible compiling a small book of photos I have taken.
I hope you all are well and am grateful to each of you who follow my blog.