When I woke up yesterday morning I realized it was back and I could no longer deny it. Depression has returned but I hope for not long. It has been years since I have had a major episode. From past experience I have found of I let myself be sad for a day but make sure I am caring for myself and getting little things done that I can be proud of I can usually pull myself out of the depression in a few days. I hope this is the case.
It has been a hard time recently but there is much to be grateful for too. I saw the best headline recently about depression. It lies to you and tells you things are worse than they are. I am familiar with that. After my depression I can look back with a clearer mind and see that though things were rough my mind believed it was far worse. It is hard to explain depression to those who have not had it.
I find that looking through my journal of gratefulness and thankfulness as well as Michael checking on me helps me fight the illusion and get myself back to the light again.