Random Reflections

Zinnia in our garden

As 2020 draws to a close I find myself looking forward instead of backwards. My husband, Michael and myself have mapped out the first few months of 2021 and what we would like to achieve and accomplish. We have made a list of things that need to be done around the house and property. We are hoping we can vacation in Maine next October. I truly missed it this year. I purchased a few photos and magnets from a photographer who lives in Ogunquit Maine. It helped me get through.

Besides my own heart health issues at the beginning of 2020, my mom was hospitalized twice. After the first hospitalization she came to live with Michael and I while she did physical therapy. She went home in May only to have to return to the hospital a second time at the end of August. This time it was determined she would not be able to return home and has instead moved into an assisted living facility. It has been both a relief and overwhelming at the same time. I feel guilt about her move and the fact she did not have too much of a say in moving. However, she understands and is adapting well to her new living arrangement.

With the Covid-19 virus being a worldwide issue and travel severely limited it is no surprise that my pet sitting business collapsed. When I started pet sitting many years ago it was always touted and promoted as a job that is secure and steady- that you can be a busy as you want to be. I never imagined my business ending in this way. It was an adjustment especially financially but we have made do with what we have. During the shutdowns we were able to have a bit of freedom and walk about our property. We have some lovely paths through the woods. The animals-deer, foxes and raccoons love using the paths too. We increased our feeding of the birds and were able to share the birdwatching with my mom. I took up reading again which is odd as I have so many books but now I have made the time to read. I came to the realization that I need to downsize and really commit to it this time. I have decided I will give myself until February 2 to achieve this goal.

After watching the world change this past year I have struggled with depression but am optimistic I can kick it soon. I am blessed with having a roof over my head, a loving husband, food in the pantry and my health. I am hoping to be able to schedule my next heart procedure before my birthday in June.

How have you been coping with the shutdowns, the virus and all the changes? Here’s to a better 2021.

2 thoughts on “Random Reflections

  1. Hello Becca, So good to see you are writing again. Tough year all the way around. I’m glad you have your husband, nature, and like you said a full pantry. The simple things are the best. Sending you blessings and lots of light for the New Year.

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