What is important?

I was recently diagnosed with atrial fibrillation more commonly known as afib. I was told I am young to have it. My mom has it too. I was told it could be caused by many things or nothing at all. It could be hereditary, stress, sleep apnea caused, stress, obesity or just because. I wore a heart monitor for two weeks. I had an ultrasound of my heart. My medication has been changed. It was found that I am in afib all the time. My heart flow and pressure is good. My beat is not good. So the next step for me is trying to have my heart shocked back into rhythm. I need to schedule it for after the first of the year. I am fearful of the procedure but know it is a very common one. I will probably be on a blood thinner for the rest of my life.

I am currently waiting for a sleep test kit to be mailed to me. Both by doctor and cardiologist want me to be tested for sleep apnea. I have been waiting three weeks for the study so apparently December is a popular time for sleep studies. Lastly I have been told to lose weight. My doctor is going to provide information and referrals on that. I was told I am a candidate for stomach reduction surgery but I am not comfortable with that at all. I fear twenty years down the road it will be discovered that it is a big mistake. So as of right now I am concentrating on my heart and sleep.

I have been working hard on reducing stress in my life and really deciding what is important to me. I found that peace and quiet is high on my list as is the quest of knowledge. Birdwatching and nature watching is soothing to me. I love photography and writing. Spending time with Michael, my mom and family as well as friends is important to me. Getting rid of energy vampires has been most beneficial for both Michael and myself. I have learned to stop worrying about what others think of me and my life and lifestyle. Since my stepfather died I have taken it upon myself to learn everything I can about Michael and my home and property. I learned from watching and helping my mom that it is very important to know about everything-household, finances, end of life wishes, funeral wishes and on and on. I finally feel comfortable starting and maintaining a fire in our wood stove. I know where the turnoff is for the water and electric. I know who to call if I have issues with the septic, my car or the bike. One of the best organizational items I have come across recently is a fill in book called I’m Dead Now What. It is comprehensive and covers everything one can think of as an addition to a will and end of life wishes.

In keeping with what is important to me-my books, candles, art work and the great outdoors round out my list. But the biggest and most important to me is having Michael by my side helping, supporting and loving me everyday. Michael has been vital in explaining to the doctors about my sleep and breathing habits at night.

Happy holidays! I hope it is all you hope it to be.

2 thoughts on “What is important?

  1. I was just reading an article about sleep testing the other day. It looks like you are a beneficiary of new technology which doesn’t require expensive nights spent in an official sleep lab. Hope you get some pertinent results!
    I don’t mean to be a “buttinski”, however, if you have doubts about bariatric surgery I can give you a few reasons not to do it. Not from my own experience, but from others who I have heard constantly complain about the life style changes they haved had to make to accommodate their rerouted plumbing. There was also a very interesting article about it in the NY Times probably more than a year ago. It appears that most people who have it lose about 100 pounds and that’s it. Also it appears that for those unlucky few who suffered constant hunger pangs before surgery, the surgery did indeed banish the hunger pangs. I don’t know if 100 pounds is worth it, but it’s all a calculation to be made by the individual.

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